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Dear Charu,

I love you and I really mean it from the bottom of my heart. It’s awesome to be with the perfect someone, who is your companion at the same time your “Best Friend”. I have spent half of my life being with you and want to complete it together. You are my beginning as well as end.

It all started when we were teens, we had a spark between us. It slowly and steadily went on to become a bond which is immeasurable and immortal now. I thank god with each passing day for this life and pray him for the same companion in my next life and lives after that. I cannot imagine my life without you. It only grows stronger and mature with each passing day.

Life feels complete being with you. It’s just that I miss you more and realize your true worth in my life, when I am away from you. You are my bright light on a dark and scary path as somebody quoted somewhere “You are my eternal sunshine”.  It fits perfectly here and feels its written for me only. I guess all the lovers think like me.

I regret the days when I have hurt you and made you cry. It seems foolish now as I have put my ego in between our relationship. I promise I will take care of you and will never make you cry. Even if I make you cry ever, I will quickly make it up to you. I will start finding new ways to love you and make you happy.

You are the most beautiful woman I have ever seen in my life. Your eyes tell me everything about your mood in a blink of a second but damn they are so sexy. Your lips are juicy and expressive. They express your inner feelings in a way which can only be understood by none other than me. Your angelic face backed by your brown hair adds up to your beauty and it gives me immense happiness and a sense of proud that I am your companion and I got the opportunity to spend the rest of my life with you.

Yours Love,

Prash

It was a long time since we had a family trip. I was busy in my job, trying to satisfy my bosses. I had no time to think about anything. My day goes with Just official work (Day n Night) which is normally followed by family time which I spent with my little angel. By night we used to get so tired that we don’t even talk to each other properly and try to sleep as early as possible to face the next day

So this routine was going on and on and there was no escape but

Suddenly an offer came from my colleagues to visit a place in the eastern part of India which is known as Puri. It’s a small tourist place in Odisha, India but its certainly not advisable to people to visit in summers. It’s very humid and its high temperature makes it more difficult to discover the place. Although a very beautiful shorelines which can be awesome when you visit from Oct to March.

We started at evening on Thursday night somehow. Courtesy our Indian Railways our train got late and we reached our destination five hours late. Missed chance to see Konark temple as my colleagues started long before we reached Puri. We reached took brunch and rested after which we just visited Jagannath temple.

Jagannath Temple

JagannathTemple is one of the most renowned as well as the biggest temples of Orissa. Established in the 12th century, the temple is dedicated to Lord Jagannath (Lord Krishna), Lord of the Universe. The credit for laying the foundation of the Jagannath temple of Puri goes to Raja Ananta Varman Chodaganga Dev.

There is an interesting legend associated with the Jagannatha temple of Puri. It is said that King Indradyumna, the ruler of the territory, saw Lord Jagannath in his dreams and following the Lord’s wishes, as told to him in his dreams, he got the JagannathPuriTemple constructed. The pillars that provide support to the temple are adorned with pictures depicting the life of Lord Krishna.

It was chaos in temple and it seemed everybody just wants money in the name of god which I despise most.

Anyway it was a beautiful feeling to meet the almighty in his one unique and beautiful form. It was peaceful and at the end of all the chaos it was worth visiting.

We left for beach and we were in for surprise. There we so many things to do. There were eateries, children games, camel ride, shopping for almost everything ranging from diamonds and pearls to balloons and pins at much cheaper cost than original.

We enjoyed sea in one of the most ferocious form and loved it. My two year old son experiencing sea for the first time and he was terrified by the sound and sight of it. He was awestruck and clung to me the whole time.

There was high tide next morning and we played for around two hours with the waves resulted in extreme exhaustion. At the end we were outplayed by the mighty sea and slept like anything after bath and breakfast.

We stayed at night in Puri and left early morning to Chilka Lake for boating and to watch dolphins.

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Chilka Lake is Asia’s largest brackish water lagoon with water spread ranging from 1165 sq km m the rainy season to 906 sq km in the dry season is nestled in the heart of the coastal Odisha (Orissa). Chilika is recognized as one of the most important wetlands in the world because it is home to a phenomenal variety of birds with over 160 species.

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We saw lots of dolphins around our boat. The lake looked like sea and the waves were equally threatening. It seemed the lake is several meters deep until I saw a fisherman standing in the sea. We were amazed. The lake was just 5-6 feet deep in the pics which I took. Can you believe it? I couldn’t until I saw with my eyes.

At the end of trip we thought the timing was wrong as in May its very hot and humid the day and much more cool at night.

One thing which surprisingly came out from this trip was that we had a great time being together and talk about things which we generally don’t talk when in home and around. Hold each other’s hand and walk along without thinking about our daily routine jobs. I feel after a long time we looked in to each other’s eyes and expressed our love for each other. Our little 2 year old was surprisingly in a very good mood and left us in to each other’s company without creating havoc which he generally does. We spent lot of time together and that was the most important thing on this trip.

My advice to people “Please take a break from your routine and go to any place you like. It does not matter where. The most important thing is that you should be together and spend quality time”   100_3131

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We have heard a lot about split personality but every one of us live in various worlds and adjust ourselves in the same. We wander around between these worlds and try to make balance all the time.

In short we all get fucked up while doing above.

Here are some phases of my life where I feel I am not who I pretend to be.

I remember when we were kids we behaved in certain manner set by our parents and society. I remember mom and dad telling me about good bad and ugly things and follow their instructions on everything. We knew what is expected by people around us for us. We were good kids. Our parents tried everything to inculcate good habits in us.

Everybody grows up. We all did and started looking for a certain direction in life. Teenage life gave lot of meaning to life. U start questions on the set social standards. U question ur parents and sometimes argue with them. Try out various things especially negative ones. U chase girls, have affairs, bunk classes, play all day, sleep, watch TV all day, make fun of people around u, ridicule teachers, make lifelong friends and experience whatever ur mind can think of. This is a great life and u have a completely different personality which is not made up and is completely natural.

But this life is still restricted in certain manner as u are still dependent and live with ur parents.

We grown further and went to college. Came out of our parents control, became independent and Make exceptionally good friends. This is a place we showed our true colors to the world, studied, behaved exactly the way we thought and did everything we wanted. Make girlfriends and get serious ultimately in this phase.

Wait !!! Getting Serious ????

This is a biggest turn around in everybody’s life. When u do such mistake u let ur life being controlled by somebody else. Ur personality gets altered. U start behaving in some manner which is not you at all. Although u enjoy ur love life like anything and enjoy this change.

When you get engaged and later married u start behaving as if u got the whole world. U start earning, become independent, get the love of ur life and start a family.

In this phase you are not what you are. You become responsible which you are not, dedicated to your family well being, your morals changes, you look people differently (Only guys can relate to this), your priority in life changes and you have time for everybody except yourself.

I guess we all live in these phases which is funny and at the same time going to disastrous circumstances which we all know and understand but still go for it.

We love adventures. Isn’t it ? 

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I was wondering the other day what love means to us and how it transforms itself from one form to another after you tie the knot.

I mean love is entirely different when you are young and carefree but it has different meaning altogether when you become responsible after marriage and starts working

Me and my wife were poles apart when we were dating !!

She used to be the sophisticated  bold, happening, beautiful, topper in her stream and most sought after type

And I,

An average looking, shy, down to earth and just acceptable to society type

We were not matched for each other at all but who can deny fate. It has great powers to bring two unmatched individuals to become one.

I always believed that she was the one made for me but was sure she can never be mine. She was way out of my league but I guess I was in to the league of extraordinary gentleman.

As I wrote fate has its own way we fell in love, she liked my simplicity and I loved her attitude n beautiful heart.

We were madly in love when we dated in our student lives.

For us love meant,

  • Talking for hours
  • Sending hugs, kisses, flowers, cards sms, mails
  • Thinking all sorts of things about each other and smile
  • Explore each other
  • Looking in each other eyes and smile like there is nothing else in the world to make us happy.
  • Singing songs to each other
  • Letting the frustration out of each other after the hard day and become serene
  • Go on dates and explore  restaurants, park and picnic spots all over the city.

Now we are married and things changed. We have a small 2 year old kid in our family. She is taking care of all of us and I am the earning member with very little help at home.

Some time she says you are not the person I loved when we were younger.

I believe I am still the same but circumstances changed. We are both busy and always running around to make a living and taking care of our son.

I feel we are still in love but love has entirely new meanings in our lives.

I feel love is in the air when,

  • U ask me how was my day after a hard day and showers ur love and care on me.
  • Kiss me good night and smile before we sleep
  • Arrange everything for me and remind me always to take care of myself in unique new ways.
  • We always try to find our time and when we get it we  sleep in each other’s arms due to exhaustion
  • We hold hand in hand or lie next to each other and talk about our day
  • We try to find reasons to celebrate and talk about our college day adventures
  • We help each other with the daily chores and sometimes go extra mile to keep each other happy.
  • We play around with our 2 year old, dance on songs and laugh together on stupid things

I think there are more than enough reasons which makes me think I m deeply, madly, passionately and truly in love with you and wanna spend the rest of my life with u.

Each progressing day makes me think how much I love u and care for you but don’t get the time to express myself like I use to do when we were dating.

Life is just awesome with you !!!!

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Husband wife relationship is unique but full of surprises. It has lots of sexy curves but unfortunately some goes downwards.

I am married for five years now and feel I have more or less understood my better half but She gives me shocks after shocks and I keep wondering what’s cooking and coming next.

You can share anything with your wife without even thinking except about other fairer sex.

If you do so by mistake, she will make sure you listen and get in back foot all your life in every arguments.

You can’t even talk about them or can’t see them. The result is always same.

You are screwed.

I have an habit of keeping things out of place like towel,news paper as per my convenience which I guess every normal man has.

First I got instructed for keeping things in place.

Later I was scolded

And Now

I am screwed every time I make this type of mistake.

I am sure after few years I will be hanged such stupid mistakes.

So I live in fear and make sure there is no outburst from my side, so that everything is cool and calm.

Expectations has no boundaries in married life.

Initially I was expected to keep things organised n tidy which I started doing to avoid arguments.

Later she wanted me to do few household chores along with keeping things organised and tidy.

When I started doing both

She said I don’t compliment her these days.

She gets irritated if she has left an empty bottle for me to fill and I don’t do it

Or

I have overlooked a stain somewhere which otherwise she will tell me or will do it on her own

I guess its her mood so I keep my mouth shut and do whatever she says.

Always expects some thing or the other which I don’t get it on my own for obvious reasons and need to be told.

I think its best for man to be calm and cool at these times  and do what she says. Its just few minutes of pain.

Result : Peace at home and mind for a much longer time than you expected. Hours of gain.

Anger has its own place in our lives with different meanings

She can display it anytime with reasons attributed to external factors but I am not allowed to show at all as it hurts her and she feels deep pain in her heart.

Anger towards the kid can be increased or decreased based on her mood or due to our arguments and when I tell her to stop

She keeps getting angry at all sorts of people who are distantly relative to us and when I say why do u care and spoiling your mood.

She says I don’t care for her.

I remember when we started dating I used give her enough time and whatever money I had for her shopping.

There was no home, no car and my expenses were minimal as I was living alone.

Now my salary tripled but major chunk goes to EMI’s and what’s left spent in for household expenses.

She says I am changed after marriage as I don’t have time and enough money for shopping.

I am told to stop her when she thinks of buying anything even slightly expensive by her own self.

I do that all the time

She says you don’t allow me to buy anything.

You have changed.

I am always on my toes to keep my behavior against social limits.

She does take care of our kid very well but expects me to handle few things without saying.
A difficult one as I don’t understand when her mood is off. When is she expecting me to do and what ?

I think the list goes on and doesn’t end till the end of our lives. The problems has no ending but we all try to go on with it.

Life is so simple but we all try to make it complicated and complex. We end up fighting with each other for petty issues

A Visit to Dentist

Posted: March 10, 2013 in General
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DentalPhobia

I had feared dentist all my life. 32 years passed and I never had to visit a dentist in my life.

Sometime back I started feeling pain in my tooth. I never cared for it

One day I was eating nuts and something cracked.

I said WTF with lot of pain

It was my tooth which broke down after spending 32 long years with me. Few days I spent with lot of pain in my tooth and gum hoping that it would fade away soon and never dared to visit the dentist. My face was swollen from one side and I was unable to bear the pain.

After a night long harassment by my tooth which resulted in a spoiled night at a hotel, I told myself with a lot of courage to visit a dentist the very next day.

I told myself

lets try it,

May be it’s a minor thing and will go away as soon as the doctor work on it.

I somehow slogged on and on to survive that night and finally slept at around 2 am but to my bad luck I had to be awake at 5 to catch a train for 6 am. I spent 1.5 hours of journey again with pain in a train.

So after the “Pain in Train” I reached home, got fresh, took appointment after heavy lunch and went to meet a dentist in the afternoon hours.

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Fortunately when I reached doctor’s clinic it was empty as it was close to lunch time. I was the last patient before lunch. I went inside a lady doctor asked me to lie down in a special kind of bed and open my mouth.

This was it !!!

Now there was no turning back

She cleaned a little something which was stuck inside my teeth and to my horror it was broken little small irritating tooth which was resting peacefully between my tooth and gum

A small tooth caused this chaos and made me visit a dentist.

Had an X-Ray which showed my tooth 80 % broken with cavity setting in.

The result

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The tooth had be to taken off !!

I was fearless till that moment but the above result kicked my head like a superb Beckham take a shot and I went to a tizzy.

The stage was set for 6 pm the same day and I was asked to be there after few test in the afternoon. I ate my favorite snack, thinking it may happen that I wont be able to eat anything solid for few days at least.

I reached at 5:45 pm at the clinic. There were already few patients lined up for the same doctor. Doctor came at 6 and asked me to come inside. My heart beat went steep upwards with the delirious anticipations.

I was asked to lie down again in a different room now and it was a different doctor. Now it was a male doctor. Thought to myself, Thank god this time I wont be embarrassed thinking about bad smell or ugly teeth.

So the sequence of events started…

The Doctor asked me to open my mouth to have a look at the target. He reconfirmed for the extraction and I exclaimed YES. He asked me to relax and open my mouth wide open. Pulled in 2 injections right inside gums for local anesthesia.

I almost fainted as it was shocking and painful which came without warning.

They left me for few minutes and started talking to a lady patient who was lying in similar conditions few meters away from me.

She had three tooth extraction.

I smiled and reassured my soul. You have just one to take out.

One side of my face was numb now as anesthesia was taking over my senses slowly. Doctor came and asked

Are u ready ?

I just smiled back and held my breath in anticipation.

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He started with his state of the art equipment (one equipment was to pull out the tooth and other to hold my mouth open and few others like a pipe to suck the wetness inside mouth and a blower), trying to pull out the three roots of my single tooth. It was painful as hell. I almost cried with few drops of tears came out, when the doctor was trying to take out one part of my tooth. I shouted instantly

I am feeling pain

Doctor replied

Its not pain, its just psychological impact of you coming in to a dentist clinic

After feeling the same pain next time I asked doctor to use anesthesia again and doctor gave me two more injections.

Same place with no pain due to anesthesia.

After this doctor worked on my mouth with his assistant like a artist for half an hour. I felt no pain but could imagine the pain and felt helpless.

Doctor sew the place after the extraction and said

Its Done !!!

I felt like I am a winner in a race or has won a war.

Left the special bed and went to doctor’s chamber where he instructed me what TO DO & WHAT NOT,

My left side of the face was swollen and it felt as if one side is my face and other Hulk’s.

Thank god in the end my tooth was out and hopefully now there will be no more visit to the dentist for the rest of my life as I have decided to take very good care of them and pamper them so that they don’t punish me the way they did this time.